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it’s been a while since i wrote in..hope things are ok with all of you? Well… lately i have experiencing some disappointments in certain things… some of it have to do with some of people that i know that is going through a rough patch and some has to do with my expectation of things. I must admit i should be a master of handling disappointments but yet no matter how matter times i go through, nothing will really prepare me for disappointments that is unforseen.

Sometimes, disappointments come because what we expect, did not come to past or fall short of our expectations. Sometimes i caught myself in this overwhelming feeling to a point of disappointment turning into discouragement and it will really get you down a long while.

Sometimes i wonder why God allows things to happen or why is He not answering his children’s prayer but yet i also know in my spirit that my Father in Heaven sees the future that i can’t see. I think the tension between experience the ‘now’ reality and what God’s ‘future’ reality is kinda of difficult to balance…okok.. maybe you are confused by what i am saying..ahhaaha… ask God for discernement la.. but i think the crucial thing i have to remind myself is to constantly acknowledge God’s lordship over my life. Cause only He knows how i feel deep within me…. i mean… we have moments where we can’t express how we really feel but yet we know it’s deep within us… and well..truth of the matter is God knows it all!

End of the day, i have just put my disappointments to God and allow Him to turn it around for his greater purpose. Sometimes i would think if humans dun go thru disappointments then isn’t life boring? hahaha it is exactly when these happens, we understand what we value, what are the things in our life we treasure and also what GOd wants to do in the midst of all these…ok. wow..today a bit lenghty.. as i was writing, the Holy Spirit reminded of a old song..let me just write it down.

Turn your Eyes upon Jesus

Look full into his Wonderful face

And the things of the earth will grow strangely dim

in the light of of his wonderful face

God bless, love you all!