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Life is just so complicated!!!! sometimes i just not sure what is real and false anymore! In this everchanging world, it really tough to navigate through the rocky path of things that entices us to REBEL or just do something stupid or naughty..it’s that spur of the moment that encourages us to just do it (Nike Slogan) We are so influenced in the culture we live, study and play and it can become so overwhelming! Sometimes i like to think my emotions are like twisters….like a tornado… form out of nowhere without much warning and the next thing you know it is full swing!!!!! Sometimes it big and something it is a small one…

no wonder it is so hard to stay in our faith in the midst of all these. But i believe God has a solution for us. Sometimes we just got to believe and try. Think about Peter in the bible, he was with Jesus, he saw, learnt and had fellowship with the Master. He told the Master that he would never ever deny him…

but he did… imagine how his world must have crashed big time! He thought it is over. it is finished… Jesus would never love me, believe in me again..but we thank GOd that Jesus came back and told Peter three times Do you love me? three times… Jesus was trying to say.. look you have made mistakes but i still love you and Peter went on to become of the best pastor in the world!!! So do think of Peter when you feel that way….  based your faith on the word of God, based your faith on who he is in your life.

food for thought… =p

sometimes life can be so bleak…. sometimes if i can only go to place where no one is there, and just give a loud shout to just frustrate out!!!! hey… i think i did that before!!! opps…. ya… guess when i was in secondary school, i was disappointed with many things… with myself, friends, ministry, God… guess it was everything… not good esp i was quite emo at that time.. sigh… so with that spur of the moment, i went out to some place nearby.. formely world trade centre… for the  very 1st time, i scream at the top of my voice. ( Dun ever try that..) hahahah ya… it like no use le… hahaha my mind was so confused with the things around me…

i was so discouraged that i felt that the best thing is to just drop everything.. dun go to church.. dun want to reply to anyone…nothing to do with God anymore!!!!! ya i know… that was really bad… it was eating me up from within… but something just took over me. As i calm myself down… before me was this calm sea… and then in that still small voice within me, God says when you run out of answers, when you run out of strength to struggle, i am there waiting for you.

i was overwhelmed with emotions… couldnt explain that day… but God by his grace just got me more and more into his love…

You know. He is the love of my life, no one can take away my love for him… from that day, i told God, no matter what happens, i will be stuck with you till the day i see you……i want to run the race, i want to tell the world that my Jesus lives… not my own anymore but for God…. it took me 4 years of my christian faith to realize that!

Now whenever i go through all these, i am always reminded of that encounter that day.. you know sometimes, GOd is just waiting at the corner for us… till we can struggle no more, till we cant argue anymore, He shows up with his loving arms…. would you open your heart more and more to Him?

thank you Lord.. you are the Love of my life.

Hi all, miss blogging here for quite some time. Anyway this week has been a week of reflection. I was on leave for the past few days and i was just thinking back how 2007 has been so far. I am not the kind who evaluate but i guess it was a good opportunity.

you know i came to this conclusion though not new that moulding is really a tiring and tough process. Bible says God is the Potter and we are the clay and i realized many times i have to through many times of mistakes, many times of hard knocks to learn certain things in life. Sometimes your mind knows it good but your heart tells you to get the easiest way out.

i have to ask myself why did i choose to do this? What causes me to hang on to what i believe? sometimes the only answer i can search really deep within myself is simply i love Jesus more than anything else. That is all… when you love Jesus more than anything else, all things become smaller, all challenges become part of life and you take it on with courage. The temptations to fall out is often so easy but yet i know my calling in God is worth more than anything else.

i know if i have to be a man of character and faith then i need to learn how to trust and lean on God on every challenges i face. i am not sure but maybe you are like me, often thinking the easiest way out but maybe have a change? learn to deal it with courage, deal with God’s love. It can be a moulding process but you can’t beat the feeling that you have grown when you walk down memory’s lane. So let’s run together to see God shinning through our lives.

Be a person of perserverance. Love, P.Gary